Monday, September 1, 2008

I hate u..... becoz I love you !

He cudnt think of anything in the world but me and I was not quite sure if I carried the same emotions for him. He cud hardly glance at me. Waiting for me ...desperate...neglected, even if his eyes were to catch me,my looks wudnt be inviting. Not that I avoided him , but I had my own chores.I had a list of things to do while his only job was to wait for.... me.


Time and again, People told me , I was lucky to have him.He made me feel special.Deep inside, I wud ask myself , if he was lucky to have me. I wud reply wryly, "If its not for me , he wud have been lucky ".I wud shower him with gifts, when all he wanted was my time.He thought I would love him like a mother. Not until I decided to be with him, I realised, he no longer wanted me. Maybe he had learnt to survive my absence.

Now I dont mean anything to him, not more than just a visitor glancing at him from the distance unreachable.

But I was not a visitor anymore. I wanted him badly. I neared him, took his arms in mine, but he pulled away.I was hurt badly.I couldnot handle the anger and the hatred in his voice. Love takes its time to unveil and time wud heal everything, I consoled myself. And the wait seemed to last forever. I lost my hope of winning him back. I thought , if I m sweet , he might like me.I knew his demands were weird, nevertheless I always budged. Understandably , he never regarded me like before. I was no longer special.
After quite sometime, I gathered the courage to tell him his demands were weird, and I would leave him. He was shocked to hear me.And I could see the anger on his face,but this time ,it was out of Love. I could see the pain in his eyes, what he had been through waiting for me...Tears rolled down my cheeks, I loved him so. He was in my arms weeping. I patted him, gently promising," I wont leave you, my son. Not ever..!".

8 comments:

Kavidhai said...

hey really romba feelingsa irrukku... but u shd come online sometime. I need lot of clarificataions to ask on this post :)

Ram said...

hi range'a irukku ana onum purila...

Naveen said...

Starting super a irundathu. But finishing ok.

kirthy said...

is that really abt ur son ;) ?

R-ambam said...

@kavi
welcome..hope its not on beer.

@ram
Nambitten...

@naveen
I give up..

@kirthy
well...let me think..

Vetrivelan said...

This blog is really awesome and narrated very well!! The words picked for the blog were apt.... 'The Hindu' paper padicha effect irunthuchi !!.. HATS OFF!!

R-ambam said...

Thanks Vetri !

Kirukalgal said...

I knew u would end it like that.